Will I ever get married ?

I feel like when I ask this question , I hope God is a little magic 8 ball . Will I get married ? Shake , shake, shake . Uncertain prospects . Then , try again because it 's like 30 results , then try again and said Reply hazy, try again. I'm like, that does not work !I thought, if I really knew the answer? That would change my way of living ? If the answer is no , why ? Well , first of all probably start pursuing what I want . 

I'll probably start saving money to buy a house and adopt children. And I 'm not going to go on a romantic honeymoon to Norway , right, for trips to the fjords. I would like to book a honeymoon and we went to the land of trolls together without men. And I would also like to have a puppy and a bread machine . These are my dreams ...But perhaps even that I would start with that , I would to God for a considerable time . 

Then I left this terrible fate. And I would make peace with him. And I would any other person in my life constantly and I hope I die happy .If I knew the other side , yes, one day get married , what would it be ? It is a science fiction that this idea of ​​a timer which can be implanted in you and tell you when you know you're getting married . The main character has a little brother on his 16th birthday that receives the clock and turns and is 20 minutes - the girl next door is going to be his wife.

His sister has set up 20 years and says she is not married to her 40 years. It therefore has all this time to wait. And I think if I think that if this is the case, if I get married , what do I do between now and then?I'll probably continue to start pursuing things . I want to save for a home and save adopt . Id ' still going on trips friend. And I probably still get the puppy and the bread machine .

I hope and look confident. And probably would have peace. Love others and my husband tirelessly future and I hope to die happy.But this is not reality. Magic 8 Ball does not answer yes or no, say still uncertain . It is the nature of our lives, we have those uncertain future , we do not know that our hopes will look like or if they are compliant. So basically , we live in uncertainty that we have to wait , which is extremely difficult.

It is difficult to expect because we do not know how long we have to wait .Some days I 'm sure you know what will happen . I think that's it, I 'm not going to be elected, everyone was in progress. But I think if I lost hope when future holds for us not clear? Then other days I think I'm totally going to marry.

I'm awesome, it will happen. But then I worry if I'm wrong, and it will not happen and in fact it is impossible.Above all, I feel anxious, depressed and desperate. And I try to delete these emotions with three passages of Scripture tried and true : Proverbs 3:4-5 , trust in the Lord. Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you , says the Lord. And John 3:16 . Throw in a good measure , this is the Christian to say.It seems that no matter what the other pieces in place , it will not be good enough until you have a partner to share my life with .

Because of the 30 to 31 birthday, a big part of my life had changed, however , always felt as if he had finished for the day and felt bitter . There have been times in my life where I am distracted me and spent a lot of my energy to the marriage. Maybe some of you can relate to the following:

    Pray that God will provide a husband.

    Pray for her husband.

    Pray wait until I meet husband said .

    Daydream about what we could do together .

    Discuss with friends about what he said and did , or did not say and do

    Go to all kinds of activities to try to meet Mr. Husband where the size of each new perspective.

And I 'm listening , but I'm really having mental pictures of our wedding photos , we vacation, diaper changes , or how sound my name with his name.

    Hobbies include reading books and articles on dating , taking quizzes in magazines and on the Internet , posting cute photos of me on Facebook (and I'm sure you've all been reversed or unflattering itself untagged Facebook photos) , thinking tweets of mind - because you only have 140 characters ( and wants to look good ) . And probably the best way would be to talk to the church and tell everyone in the congregation who are alone . So below you will get .

    Plan , plot and execute. So getting married like a champ.But it nothing happens . I 'm not married . Thus, it seems that no matter how much effort I put into this or pretend that I did not put effort into it - I do not care if I get married, that's fine. None of these things does nothing to affect the outcome .

However, I have to stay with this. Maybe some of you are stuck on this issue. When you live with uncertainty and they wait. And each new day and you think it's the same as yesterday , it is only now that I'm a year older .So, you ask, " God , you have forgotten me? Everyone picked up and I 'm not ! "Even though I do not know how I could forget me because I'm always at your face ... Then I proceed to hear and say," My God , what are you trying to tell me " Then there is another question: is there something wrong with me? Did I do something or I 'm something that disqualifies me to get married, especially when all these people are gathered.I do not know the answers to these questions.

I continue to pray and spend time with God , so I know he has not forgotten me . And I distrust . To accept the things I can not change me . To have the courage to change the things I can change . And know that life is complicated .It makes no sense why some of us are married and some are single.

It is like a point where eventually you all together or you have worked through all the issues so that you are qualified and then you can get married - you get the seal of approval. Because a lot of people get married at different times of their lives, and they are dirty people . And that's fine . We do not have to try to get to a point where all of a sudden then we will be able to marry. 

This is , again , ignore and wait . I try to use this time to turn to God and be holy. I do not think that God has forgotten any of us. And I really think any of us are able to love others and be loved .I recently thought I could channel all my energy into something a little more productive . The district assembly has a lot of options. Never heard of Playground Area Vista Angela . We have the Columbia Heights Youth Club, Samaritan Inn . Austin makes soccer training . 

The production team needs help , equipment for hotel needs needs of the city with aid for children. Maybe there are other things you could do and think instead of dwelling on this or obsessed with it .As marriage make us better and sanctify us , not other things in our lives to do the same ? Our uniqueness , our work, our families, serve others, even something as simple as picking up trash thing . 

They sanctify us and make us holy . God gives us good things every day. Will we notice them and accept or will just focus on the one thing we do not have ?Dr. Mark Laaser is a nymphomaniac and theologian wrote that he believes there are seven desires of our heart that God gives us to be heard, to be confirmed in order to be blessed, of course, be affected to be selected , and include. 

I ask God to meet those desires.And in doing so , I make sure that I not only keep my spouse to be the center of my universe - where he meets all needs, or try to get everything he needs , but I 'm just disappointed and is resentful . Instead , ask God to answer all these wishes your way. And it is a very creative God. In many aspects of our lives - all these dreams I was talking - which can be served in small things . Even working with the City of Kid get to play with the children. Or , rent a house . However, I can see the pups in the park.I want my life has meaning.

Not be stuck somewhere be bitter , angry or resentful because I'm just one person . God loves us so much and I have so much love to give back. Why not give him? Why should I expect to be a person to be objective ? I can not spread it around?There is a quote that I love by Kelly James Clark said . " My life is but a conglomeration of sense of random events and chance without complications It is rather a series of divine appointments with the aim of giving shape my character. "When I think about this question, I think of all the other things in my life. What I believe about God .

What I think of me. This happened to me and what I did. And I think , maybe this question is not the right question. Maybe it covers or has priority over other issues that maybe I'm too afraid to ask. Questions such as:Should I confess ?Should I apologize ?Should I offer forgiveness ?Should I cry?I must admit that I have an addiction ?Do I think I'm good enough?Do I believe that I am worthy of love?I can trust you , God?That. I have to ask : I can trust you , God?I think looking for a spouse to be vulnerable , to risk love and receive love , and work in partnership with is very good. Relationships are the essence of our humanity - to be the image of the Triune God - the God in three persons: God.

But we can not put the joint in the role of Jesus in our lives. As someone who is our savior and our concern. And do not be ashamed that we want another person to be in a relationship with another person and walk with them for the rest of our lives. This is a good desire.It is good to ask God : Will I get married ? And also good to ask ourselves : Am I asking the wrong question ?That's life .

Not sure. But we hope for our expectations.I love sticky notes , if it I have on my desk at work Wailing . he said :By the mercy of the Lord are not exhausted,for his compassions never fail .23 They are new every morning ;great is your faithfulness.24 I say to myself, "The Lord is my portion ;so I'll wait . " ( Not for him , but for him . )25 The Lord is good to those who wait for him ,those who seek ;26 It is good to wait quietlyfor the salvation of the Lor.